Reader Discretion is Advised.

as i lay here sitting on this bed, this sad bed. filled with sleepovers,naps,parties that were in my pants. i started thinking. where is this all coming from, who is this all for. am i the onlly one who is thinking like this or is someone else just as confused as me. im worried that this is not normal. that her thoughts ,alone, are more dangerous then her actions themselves. is she in control of herself and so far i feel like she has no control. like there is no say from herself. i feel as if her life is not her own and i have now way of stopping her. boredom overfills her brain and everytime she wishes to do something the word "pointless" fills it to the rim. but what is this that imm saying? who is this girl? is this my friend, my only friend, the only other in my family, or some form of a monster. is she alone or yelling in a crowded room. i do not know, because i know what she says and does is not for her, but for others. im sorry that this happened to you friend. and things will get better. try and try. just never give up....

L!z