today was such a sunny day and of course i was outside al day, im not compaining because i lvoe the sun, but i mean it was literally ALL DAY. i walked to the gym, walked back home from the gym, walked to carters house, met up with him and chloe to go swimming, walked to the apartments called "the palms" for a nice dip in the pool, walked back to the albertsons plaza to fill out applications, walked back to carters for lunch/dinner, then walked all the way back to my house. if this walking was not enough for you then too bad, tomorrow morning i am still going to do my regular walk on the treadmill for an hour. tell me im crazy:) all my walking todayhas not stopped me from blogging so dont worry about me. haha.
my walking has gotten me thinking that i am a loser, that i am the total definition of a loser. that because i have no car and no job that i am a loser. i have been trying to get a job for a few weeks now and nothing has come up. im tired of feeling so down on myself but i have no chooice. i feel like if i dont do anything meaningful with my life soon that he will move on and find someone better. i just know this will happen because what is so great about me?? exactly nothing! ughh. i might as well jump off of a bridge right now..
Thought to ponder: liz hates herself
Love,
liz...
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